currently,soal JODOH, KAHWIN, selalu menjadi topik perbualan di kalangan teman2 rapat & family.
ini sedikit sebanyak cukup2 merisaukan diri aku yang sememangnya masih sendiri di saat ini.
ramai rakan rapat berkata,aku tidak appreciate mereka yang berada di smping aku kerana di mataku hanya nampak dia,dia,dia,dia dan dia
ya,aku akui,aku hanya suka dia sahaja
insan itu,sahaja sejak dulu hingga kini
walaupun dia berkemungkinan besar menyukai orang lain, family sudah merestui hubungan mereka
namun aku masih berdegil dan tidak mahu berputus asa
selagi dia belum mempunyai apa-apa ikatan yang sah dengan perempuan itu, selagi itu aku tak akan berputus asa dan tidak akan berhenti menyayangi dia
ianya memang hanya cinta di sebelah pihak (omg,cinta? since when ak mjadi bgitu direct?huhuhu)
right now, i cant think straight at all.
asyik bermalasan n seperti tiada inspiration langsung
dia dan aku sudah hampir 5 bulan langsung tidak berhubung
sememangnya hati aku sangat sakit
di facebook pun dia tidak pernah meng like atau comment apa-apa
tapi dia sangat aktif dengan rakan lain
adakah dia dengan sengaja mengelak daripada aku?
ya,i'm a bit sensitive about this lately.
dia online chat,but never try to make any communication with me
that shows that iam really nobody for him
sad,sad,sad
there are 3 guys that might have some sort of feelings towards me
but i dont really have anything to give back to any one of them
i just treat them as colleagues, and a big brother who listens to my complaints really well
some of them even gave me lots of hints like asking permission from me to 'kidnap' me from my parents or even treating me lunch,dinner,snacks,doing favors for me...
i just kept on acting naive,acting as if i dont understand their intention at all
is my behavior rt now is what he has been done to me...T.T
iam so CONFUSED
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